God is Good!

My last couple posts have been filled with lots of mixed emotions. Emotions that are both good and bad. Some that I felt like I wasn't quite sure why I was feeling the way I was feeling, and others that were just real life problems. Often times when I am feeling stressed, my go to just like most people is a little pity party! Whether it is with others around pitting with me or just me alone, I find myself doing this every time. I've started to realize though that it doesn't make the situation any better, in fact I think it does the quite opposite. It gets me thinking about my terrible  terribly wonderful life a little more than needed. Don't get me wrong I am not saying don't vent every once and a while, but having a full on pity party that lasts sometimes days is a little overboard. 

This week my heart truly hit rock bottom, to the point that it was torn apart and I am still recovering. And that is when I realized my sweet little problems aren't all that bad. A guy that I know pretty well lost his mom suddenly. She was perfectly healthy and all was well, until Sunday night when she had a stroke. She was in a coma for less than 24 hours before passing on to her heavenly home. I did not know her personally, but I knew both her son and one of her daughters, and that was enough for me to feel deeply saddened. These three kids (she has another daughter) no longer have a mom here on earth. They will continue to grow up without her by their side. I can't even imagine. I have asked God many times in the last two days why? Why did you have to choose her? Why did you not give them any notice? And each time peaceful thoughts fill my head as to why she was the chosen one. Do I think it's fair, no, I don't but do I have a peaceful understanding that God will provide for both her and her family, yes I do! Life is short y'all and at any moment God can call any one of us home. It is terribly scary, but it is so great to know that he is always going to care for us. So while he is "stressed out" and dealing with far greater things than I can ever imagine, I am never aware of those times, because he does not complain, and he always picks up the slack.

It is so cool to know that something so big in our minds is actually one of the smallest possible things ever. Sometimes life hands us things that seem like a lot to handle at the time, but we always get through them, and that is because of our lovely K I N G! The lord has really used this week as an example of how precious life truly is, and that we should tell our family and friends we love them every chance we get. We can never love enough no matter how hard we try, but that is okay because The Lord is able to pick up our burdens and love each and everyone of us a little more each and every day. 

My hope is that this sweet family feels the love and prayers from all. That they are able to get through the holidays and know that their mom is now able to celebrate all holidays in Heaven! How cool is that? I bet it is way better than here on earth!! I also hope and pray that they lean on each other during this difficult time. It never gets easier, but eventually they will begin to feel somewhat of a new normal! 

I will leave you with the song I am obsessed with right now!!! 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoZE2RsthRg

I hope everyone has a fabulous rest of the week!! 

XOXOXO,

Maggie

Life!

Where do I even begin... Life has been nonstop. I feel like I haven't even had time to breath let alone blog. It's like time slows down when you need it to speed up and it speeds up when you can't seem to catch a break. Between going to school full time and working, I am worn out. Flat out TIRED. Any free time I get I just want to spend it snuggled up in bed relaxing. And while busyness is good sometimes it surely isn't good right in the midst of a semester that is coming to an end. I have a paper,project and or test every week from here on out! Can someone scream CRAZY!!!

The other night I was so overwhelmed that I just had a sob and complain fest. And afterwards I felt like a million bucks! It's crazy what one good cry can do for the soul. In the midst of this crazy life  I have still found time to visit with some friends and spend time with my loving family, but it's not enough time. I wish I could just get become a teacher without having to get a degree, could earn money without having to work and just be roaming around doing whatever I wanted to, but alas that is not how this life works and surely if it did, I'd find something about it that I didn't like.

When I started this blog I remember thinking "Oh my goodness I am going to blog everyday and it's going to be great!!" Who was I kidding? I can barely find the time to blog once a month. While I would love to be able to blog at least once a week I know that is not at all possible. With the holiday's approaching and school coming to an end for the semester I am hoping that I will be able to breath a little easier and just do lots of resting and hanging out.

I love everything about the holidays, the weather, the crisp smell of the outdoors, the yummy food, but most of all the family time. It's not everyday that you get to sit around and do nothing with your whole entire family. Between the five of us there is at least one person gone every night, but during the holiday's it doesn't quite seem that way and  I love it.

Alright enough of all this mopey,boring talk about the glorious thing we call life! I shall get back to my stacks upon stacks of homework assignments.

Hopefully next time I will be back with something good to say!

Love and Hugs from the girl who truly does love life and everything in it!!


XOXOXOXO,

Maggie

The End of October

My oh my is it really November?! I just blinked and boom it was almost Christmas time. Well not really, but lets be honest we all wish the weather would get a little colder and the holiday cheer would begin to spread! The last couple weeks have been nothing but crazy busy, but also full of a lot of nothing.

Last Thursday I got sick with a terrible stomach bug! It was the worst I had felt in a REALLY long time. A feeling that I had hoped would not stay long. Sadly it had other plans for me... Friday the 24th I turned 20 and didn't look back! Although I was sick I did not let that stop my celebrations that I had planned. You only turn 20 once right? Why stop all the celebrations then! Friday was filled with lots of love,laughs and good times despite the sickness. The rest of that weekend was just filled with sleep upon sleep. The Monday and Tuesday to follow were again filled with lots of sleep and the absence of school and work. For some that might be really exciting, but for me not so much. I hate having to catch up on things and now I was having to catch up on school and life all at the same time and I just felt so overwhelmed. Actually overwhelmed enough that one night I found myself crying for no reason at all! Just flat out blubbering like a baby because I could! I soon got over that and realized that I needed to move on with my life and that eventually I would be back on track and things would seem to be okay. And what do you know Wednesday I was back at work and school and life seemed normal again. No, I wasn't feeling that great yet, but I was back in my routine and that's all I needed. Finally today (Saturday) I feel 100% better. I was able to run all day and babysit without any problems! Thank you LORD!

This semester has been long, hard, and just very overwhelming for me. I don't know if it's the little bit of my slack, the slack of the professors or both, but I am finding this semester to be so much harder. Don't get me wrong I still work my tail off to get my stuff done, but sometimes I feel like that just isn't enough. I will surely be ready for this semester to end in just a couple months. I am in disbelief that in just about 3 weeks Thanksgiving will be here and then shortly after that we will be dealing with Christmas. For now I am just trying to keep my head above the water so that I can keep swimming.

Although there are times that I feel completely overwhelmed and I just want to give up, I think about all the things that I have been blessed with and keep trucking. My life to some people might seem super challenging, but to others it seems to be the perfect life that they would die to have. So for those people, I commend you for whatever hardship you might be going through, and I want to thank you for showing me what it's like to keep pushing on! Sometimes we take life for granted and in those times we really need to step back and think was that really necessary? Not everyone walks the same path you do, so take a minute and try another path for a day just to see the difference. Change isn't always easy, and fun but it is always possible.

I am grateful and couldn't love life more if I tried! Thanks life for always sticking by my side whether you wanted to or not.



XOXOXOXO,

Maggie 

Momma Bear Protecting Her Cubs!

Today, I had to break out into full on Momma Bear! Ryan and some of his little fifth grade friends met up to go ride on their skateboards. The meeting place as always was Ryan's house! I love having kids running in and out of our house, because I am in charge and I know no "funny"business will be going on. Before they went on their ride around the hood, they were going to stop at one of the boys houses to pick something up. Five minutes after leaving the house, I hear a knock on the door. I quickly go to the door to see one of Ryan's little friends standing there (this boy was not with them originally!). I answer the door, and Ryan's friend asks me if Ryan was home. I said "no Ryan JUST left with a bunch of boys, and they should be at Ben's house." Ryan's little friend looks at me and goes "I just came from Ben's and his mom said they weren't there. I think they ditched me!" OH NO NO NO.... I am not going to let that fly. No one ditches anyone on my watch. I'm sorry. I yell for Sammie up the stairs, quickly put a leash on Roxie and the three of us plus Ryan's friend are out the door. I am on a hunt for Ryan and the rest of the boys, and my first stop is Ben's house.

I walk up to Ben's house and ring the door bell only to have his mom come to the door to tell me " Oh the boys aren't here, I'm not sure where they are?" At this point I'm livid...not only is Ryan not answering his phone, but he is also no where to be found. As soon as I get to the end of the street I see a pack of boys fly on by, and I knew it was them. I walked as fast as I could to catch up to them, and by this point, half of them fled the scene. Clearly because they knew I WAS MAD. Ryan though is smart enough to know that he needed to go home, because he was about to have a little talking to. I am almost to Ryan, and he knew right away that I was not a happy camper. After asking him where he had been, why he wasn't answering my calls, and what all these boys were up to? He confessed that some of the boys were indeed trying to ditch his little friend. Ryan being the sweet boy that he is had started to head home when they started their ditching plan. I was so proud of him, but I still was not going to let these other boys get away with such a thing. So I marched my little self along with Sammie, Ryan and Ryan's little friend to the house that all these boys fled to. I walked right into the backyard, and gave all those boys a piece of my mind. I explained to them that what they were doing was not appropriate, and that if they continued to do it I would no longer allow Ryan to play with them while I am there. They shook their heads and said "YES MA'AM!"

There is just something about little fifth graders ditching people that screams "bullying" to me and I don't stand for that at all. These children might not be mine, and I might not be their nanny or their mom, but I will stand up for every single one of them. My heart was breaking and pumping all at the same time for this precious little soul, who had gotten his feelings hurt. I am not afraid to stand up to anyone who is in the wrong. In the end it's them who needs the adjusting not me. I want everyone to be happy, and I feel like I can help make that happen. And yes I know somethings the boys need to work out on their own, but this was something that I knew needed some Momma Bear!

I am so glad we got it all resolved, and I hope and pray that it never happens again! Not sure my little heart can take anymore of that.

Have a fabulous weekend!!

XOXOXOXO,

Maggie

8 Months Later

Eight months and 26 posts later I think I finally have this whole decorating the blog down. Seriously y'all it has taken me so long to figure out how to change my template. All the blogs I follow have all these cutesie little backgrounds and they change them every so often, and I was sitting over here like "my stuffs off center, my colors don't go, and I really could careless how the background looks" Ok well maybe not that blunt, but you get the idea! For awhile I thought about paying one of these ladies on one of the many sites to redo my blog, that was until I figured out that cost WAY TO MUCH! I might be a sucker for somethings, but the blog background just wasn't getting me.

Fast forward 8 months and it is now the middle of October, and I still don't have this stuff all figured out. One night last weekend I was just online shopping, catching up on blogs, and trying to catch up on my blog, when I realized I really needed to look into giving my blog a makeover. I mean I won't go outside of the house without my hair done, so why does my blog have to be seen by others with UGLY makeup on?  So, finally I came upon this wonderful website that basically walked me through the whole process of making columns, centering things, putting up a pretty background and even going as far as how to add a pretty banner to match. 

So after all this time I realized, all it took was a simple little search to figure out how to do all this. I guess the saying is right "you can't can teach old dogs new tricks!" I am a walking example! Before we know it my background will get saggy and old and I will have to replenish it. But until then I plan to enjoy this lovely background, and all the lessons I learned with it. Nothing is better than feeling fresh. Isn't that right blog? 

That's all for now little blog lovers, I hope you enjoy my new background as much as I do!


Until the next facelift,

XOXOXOXOXO,

Maggie

Leaving Behind The Teens

In just a couple weeks I will be leaving behind "my young adulthood/teen years" and entering my 20's. To some that might be still super young, and to others it might be super old. But to me I am leaning toward another day older! Like  I've stated in other posts I long for the day that I am no longer labeled in the same category as a "young immature teen". I finally think that time has come and I couldn't be more excited. This weekend I was asked what my plans were after attending this last year at HCC.. My response was "work and continue going to school at UH. I don't want to go away because I am not into all the partying and such that comes along with the whole college thing." I truly feel that it takes a special person to say they'd rather live at home attend the local college and work rather than, go off to school, party 24/7 and hope and pray the "saying D's get degrees" still is true.

I have never been one that was dying to fit in or just did things to make myself feel on top of the world. I have always been a super cautious person, who would rather not push the limit! I know some people are probably thinking "wow this girl needs to live a little." And I agree living and taking chances every once and a while is great, and I do that, but taking chances all the time just aint my style. So while some kids are sad to say goodbye to their teens years, I am rather happy! Happy that I am maturing as a person, happy that I have been blessed for 20 years, happy that I've had the opportunity work and know what it's like to budget money, but most importantly happy that I have been through many struggles in my life, but in the end I always come out on top and a little more wiser than I was when I was first struck.

I hope that in 20 years I will look back at this blog and still have the same thoughts as I do now. I hope that in those 20 years I am able to finish my college degree, find a wonderful job, marry the most godly man on this planet, have lots of children, and have the opportunity to teach my children that in this broken world there is a way to succeed and their mom is a living example of it. I hope and pray that I can raise a family that is loving,generous and all around humble.

I can't thank the Lord enough for giving me the life He did. For allowing me to not live a perfect life, but know that just because life isn't perfect doesn't mean that it won't go on. It's about looking at the glass half full instead of half empty in the darkest of days.

So on my twentieth birthday I will be rejoicing at the fact that I am one year older, one year wiser, and one year closer to reaching all my goals. Life is good y'all and I am so thankful to be apart of this great big world, made by our wonderful creator!

I hope you all have a wonderful week!


XOXOXOXO,

Maggie  

MacBook Beauty

On Monday I made one of the biggest purchases, I think I will ever make in my life. Or at least until I purchase my first car, or pitch in for my first home. I had been dreaming of this beautiful Macbook Air for a long time now. My old laptop started being really slow and getting viruses ALL. THE. TIME. It was quite annoying. I researched for quite sometime to make sure that I was wanting to really make the switch to a Mac. After much research and the reassurance from my brother and sister I knew I was in. 

Although it was really hard to part with my long hard earned 1200 dollars, I knew it would be all worth it in the end. So now I am in the process of switching all my documents over, and getting everything acclimated. Everything feel so fresh and clean on this laptop, that I am so nervous to take it places and use it. I know I will soon be over that fear, and eventually it will become old and decrepit just like my last one. Here's to hoping it last me well into my teaching years!

That's all for now my friends! Hope y'all have a wonderful weekend!

XOXOXO,

Maggie